Saturday, September 26, 2015

Fall Again

How long it's been...

Fall has arrived once again, and I'm trying to soak up every bit of it that I can. It's been amazingly warm for the time of year and the birds are saying it's going to stay warmer than usual for a while. This time of year is perfect, the colours, the leafy smell, not sweating and feeling disgusting, wearing sweaters, harvesting the garden veggies, and pumpkins. I'm feeling very whimsical about it this year, like I could just sit outside and stare out at nothing...just be.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

The Day Of The Cake
Ages it has been, yes? Despite the time it's been since my last post, I barely have a word to say. During that time I did get my car back, though it still isn't drivable. So in the meantime I continue to try and save up (and continue to try and give two craps about it) so it can be fixed and driven. Good times there.

In February my sister attended a wedding event at a local resort where she was showing her cakes. She needed some help with set-up and some company for the slow times. The day become known as "The Day Of The Cake". It was nice to take random photos of cupcakes and cakes, not something I get to do every day...or I'd be diabetic because I'd hate to waste all that cake for the sake of photos...

The weather that day was freezing. Really freezing (-30 celcius or so), despite the next day being almost up to zero. The luck of the draw, I suppose. It was a quiet day, couples came and went. Personally, it was awkward for me. I hate brides. Seriously. There's a reason I don't do custom orders, and especially no customs for brides. They change their minds constantly and have insane expectations. I just don't really understand people, though.

Anyway, cake photos. Yup.

Saturday, December 27, 2014

Oh, ho ho ho [Photo Dump!]
I have been absent far too much these days. Each of my usual sites to visit have been neglected and my visits have been sparse. It feels as though most of my time is spent trying to keep the house tidy, trying to make some decent meals, and keep myself semi-stress-free. Unfortunately in doing so, my online life has suffered. It seems as if I barely post or visit hardly any of the sites I used to.

The holiday season has been, surprisingly, nice. Relatively stress free, calm, and enjoyable. Since I live with my father, I only have a few spaces of my own in the house and during the holidays his decorations take over...meaning mine are confined to almost no space. I felt slightly negative about the holidays early in the season and had even said I wasn't going to bother putting up my precious psychedelic silver tree...but then I did. I hate that it's stuffed into a little corner and over half of it is unusable, but I'm so glad I did put it up. It may seem silly, but I enjoy just admiring my funny tree, and all my old (and some newer) ornaments.

The decorations are honestly one of my favourite aspects of this time of year. This time of year up here in Manitoba is very cold, dark, and dreary, so all the lights add just a little happiness and light to what is otherwise a terrible time of year. When the ornaments and lights come down after new years I go into a slight depression and it feels daunting to think about the remaining MONTHS of winter left to suffer through.......but I'll try not to think about that until it happens.

I hardly took any photos with my dslr, but my phone was snapping away. Most of them posted exclusively to my instagram. Sometimes I feel like my phone negatively effects my life...I neglect using my laptop and therefore stop using many of my regular sites. I use my dslr less and less because the phone is just more convenient, which is probably the part that makes me feel the worst. That being said, my eyes are much happier to not stare at the laptop screen just the communicate on certain sites and I suspect I have a few less headaches because of it. Pros and cons, I suppose.

Ah, well. Here's hoping everyone out there had a lovely (and relatively stress-free) holiday season. Here we come, 2015...

Saturday, October 25, 2014

October Is Almost Over...
It should come as no surprise that this blog has been so neglected, much like the other parts of my life that I once prided myself upon keeping up.

Halloween is less than a week away now and sales have come to a stop...and I didn't get nearly enough finished and sold. Again, it's no surprise and has been the story of my life this past year. I find myself uncaring about virtually everything and with winter on the way I see less and less to look forward to. I'm still fighting to get my car back (just so that I can sell it and get my money back), my garden is all done, the weather is getting cold, and the pretty leaves are almost entirely finished now. I dread the winter, and every day it gets closer things feel a little more and more hopeless.

There are still many movies and shows that I normally watch this time of year in anticipation of Halloween, and I haven't even the drive to watch half of them yet. The decorations are up, the fabric for my costume is ready to be used, the candy is ready to be handed out, and I still feel...nothing.

On the slight upside, I did buy a cheap smart phone. I finally have a phone that can be used as a phone (the speaker in my old one died...) and use the internets. I even have an instagram account. Go figure.

Self pity, self pity. Happy Ocotober.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Fumble And Fall
Normally fall is something that is looked forward to. Pretty leaves, sweater weather, home baked goodies, and (of course) pumpkins and Halloween. This year I just feel like I have nothing to look forward to now. After finally getting a ride out of my area to view some vehicles, purchase a vehicle, just to take it to a shop and have that shop try to take advantage of me...ending up in a legal battle to get the car back without having to pay for this shop unlawfully trying to charge me as much as the car cost...and with gardening season at it's end, I'm having an extremely difficult time trying to find anything to look forward to.

This summer I had hoped to do so much but instead wasted it at home waiting for a ride to the nearest city (only two hours away, I might add) just to look at vehicles. A simple thing like buying a vehicle, instead I waited around, frustrated...trying hard to focus myself on the garden, the only thing that felt like it was going well. Instead the summer was wasted on nothing but frustration and self pity, waiting for something to happen and even only getting to the lake a couple of times, despite the fact that it's only a ten minute drive away.

The leaves went quickly this year...
I hate everything...

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Goodbye, July

Bring it on, August. Bring it on.

At least I have ice cream...